25.1.05
i dont usually blog. i only blog when im really desperate. i am now. i need to get things off my chest.
ive just been stabbed. right through the heart. by the only one i can possibly be so affected by. i have no slightest understanding of what yr intentions are. i dunno what's the truth and what are lies. to me, now, everything seems a lie. yr just so selfish...u really are...there's no explanation and no proper reasoning...how am i expected to swallow everything and just forget it and move on. it's not as simple as ABC. it bloody well isnt. everything...EVERYTHING...that happened....it's all forsaken with just a word from you. my opinion counts for nothing. my feelings count for nothing. whatever u say, i have to obey. well fine! it's always been the case isnt it. whether im happy or sad....it doesnt even matter to u. afterall im just a passer-by in your life...and i dont matter a damn bit. turn your back upon me....really....just dump me...like trash into a litterbin. when u need me, u plead for me to stay. when u dont want me anymore, i can just go to hell. what the fuck. im not meant for u to play with. go find somebody else of your own kind.
just desert me. i wont feel the pain.
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